Vivir La Vida Suave
ok so soft girls still go hard for safety: Some things I've done for protection, liberation, and justice. if you got other tips, send em my way. sharing is caring, heres mine:
Face masks, duh. Use duck duck go exclusively as my browser. google pixel as my device, known to be best security wise. Don't log in to public WiFi unless absolutely necessary. exercise my 4th and 5th amendment rights (to remain silent, and to be represented by an attorney) Leave phone if going somewhere I don't wanna be seen at. Downloaded a keyboard that is NOT GOOGLE Or connected to the internet. Separate phone for meta apps (IG, FB, Threads, Whatsapp), also a pixel. Turn off as many location access as possible. Deny cookies. No face ID or biometrics cuz wtf..........better be safe than sorry, homies. pap smears. flu, covid, hpv shots. Stay grounded and Fuck ICE.
I am TIRED, oh so weary on this journey called life. living in crip time. (Link to an excellent essay on WTF crip time is.) I am Limping along as a hypermobile sweatsuit-wearing spliff-smoking princessa on planet Earth. I take shit from nobody. some lady tried to tell me i was lazy for not cleaning my own bathtub. ma'am if you don't quiet your ableist ass down immediately, you don't understand that i did those things and got worse. disability is not something to be ashamed of. and it sure as hell ain't lazy. we don't all run marathons, or even 5ks. but we make it through a grocery run and then run a bath for our aching joints. just bc i need soft clothes and orthotic shoes and prescription glasses and a CPAP machine and injectable medicine and tons of pills and patches doesn't mean i don't deserve to live a decent life. just bc i can't scrub a tub or some baseboard does not mean my life isnt worth living. i live my life for the disabled around the globe, i rep us, i write for us, i cry for us, i sing and shout and fight for us.
I had my disability hearing last week, and i do not know how it went. sometimes i feel confident, other times i am like fuck that was horrible i fucked it up. either way tho, i'm gonna be ok. my tummy is full. thank you EBT. you can Expect Big Things from this welfare witch. i don't have any subscriptions cuz that shit's expensive and whack, plus most things i can get through the library or just suck it up thru the ads on soundcloud if i'm listening to some underground shit.
that soft life, that's me. i am herbal tea and a heating pad every day. lofi and reggae and the blues. old movies or modern films that break paradigms. i am a busy mind trapped in an aching body. don't ask me to jump. or climb stairs. i mean really. it hurts!!!!!!!! it shouldn't. it does. oh well. i can't get a refund. i told my grandma today, i don't think this is my first time on earth and i don't think it'll be my last. tho...with a select group of humans is fucking up the climate with their endless wars, mining, jetsetting and parties all in the name of "progress." progress is feeding everybody, and making sure they have a safe place to lay their head to sleep. progress is not denying medicine to people who pay you monthly for service, looking at you for-profit healthcare. progress is protecting the planet we reside on and achieving peace after so many centuries of war and disruption. don't look away when you're tempted to. give money to mutual aid and bail funds instead of non-profits that are criminally inefficient bandaid solutions under capitalism.
i plan to live a long life if the government will let me. i say that with honesty, on several counts 1. i'm a pain patient 2. i have a severe mental health diagnosis 3. i have radical views that are anti-establishment and i'm not shy about sharing them. i just think we all should live in harmony, instead of constant suffering and war. allocating resources equitably to all, ensuring we all have our basic needs met, would reduce SO MUCH UNNECESSARY VIOLENCE. Like damn. Come on, can't you mothafuckas see that? Advocate for that? get behind it or watch it alllllllll crummmmmmmmmble. and watch crips lead the motha fuckin way, because we been adapting and surviving this entire time. we are geniuses. beautiful + blessed. intersectional. global. divine in our disabilities. deserving of ease, prosperity, and a functioning society that centers access needs of the most vulnerable.
