Full Moon Surprise
Tonight's April Pink Moon SURPRISED me. I didn't know it was full until 10am which is rare for my witchy ass self. I was at the acupuncture clinic doing a shift and when I checked my phone, I saw my moon phase app "100% Full Moon" DAMN APRIL, you snuck up on me.
Of course I'm working. It seems like I'm always working a night of a full moon or eclipse or some shit. It also is like crazy fuckin weather in NY. I drove through a full on sleet storm on the highway this morning to get to clinic. Shit was gnarly but I muddled through.
Laughter has been ringing out all day. Thank god cuz what the fuck in general. A few bursts of anger and a lot of despair too. But laughter. Today taught me things. It taught me that I can push myself to do more. My anti-ableist, anti-capitalist truly disabled self is screaming inside DON'T! That self is coming through to this page, the flashing red light warning sign has been activated. HOWEVER, according to East Asian medicine, spring is a favorable time to plan, make lists, and dream. So here's my dreams, the ones I'm speaking into reality, they're words on a page today, visions for tomorrow.
I dream of learning everything I can at Daydream (that's the name of the clinic I work at<3) so that I can open my own neighborhood clinic when I establish where exactly I'm gonna live. I dream of cash in my hand. I dream of a new car with heated seats cuz my back is ACHEY when I drive. I dream of a bike so I don't have to drive as much, plus nothing beats the ass I had the years I spent as a cyclist. I dream of my own kitchen where I don't have to be so careful to fuck shit up when I'm cooking, where I can make a mess and get to it the next day kind of thing. I dream of several tattoo designs, none of which I'm revealing here. I dream about babies. I dream of having enough energy to raise my babies and cook meals for my family regularly. I dream about having all my needs satisfied, and I dream about looking around at my community and seeing ALL THEIR needs satisfied. I dream about divine intervention, lightning bolt and shooting star energy toward a future that's liveable! I Dream of Genie.
Why did we let this all get so rotten to the core? Talking imperial core here. Fuck these mother fuckers think they're gonna do, eliminate US ALL??? I don't think so. However, the climate is like, rapidly accelerating toward a point of no return, at least not for the species writing this document. This blog is NOT produced by AI!!!!!!!!! You don't need AI. Please stop using it. It uses so many precious resources. Living beings should be your priority, not bullshit internet trends. Make the damn list yourself. Do the research. Or get offline entirely for a few days. Or forever, shit. We absolutely need to disconnect and spend time investing in mutual care. That's what I'm about, and been about since i started receiving care in community at age 19.
The first time I ever got acupuncture was in a recliner chair with a sheet over it at Clove Tree Community Acupuncture in North Haven, CT. I kept bringing up to Zhihong, the acupuncturist and founder of the clinic, how I wanted to relax, how stress reduction was my main priority as a college student, but also I was dealing with pain and hormonal imbalance. She assured me that there were treatments available if I could come with some consistency. I did. And they helped.
Which is why I'm a fuckin loud mouth about the benefits I've received by getting treatment way out of the comfort zone of most US-Americans. But if people can't wrap their heads around bidets being hygienic and profoundly useful, then the idea of lighting on fire a piece of mugwort (dried herb) on acupoints is probably too much. I try to put respect on the name of all East Asian and in fact Indigenous medicine folk globally. Their medicine is older than Western shit. I don't know what remedies my ancestors used; i will research without the help of AI. My grandma's medicine is soup, black tea, Tylenol and pain patches. This i know.
God I'm tired. It's 10:27. I rested not one bit today, so you better believe I'm gonna sleep like an angel fairy baby when my head hits that pillow in exactly 2 hours from now. That's all the juice I got in me folks. giving this a once over then hitting publish. <3 be well my darlings.